Girlishly

Are you focused on dreams  Or fantasies ? Do you dream about fulfilling Your fantasies, Or do you fantasize about Achieving Your dreams ? I keep looking Inside and out, Totally devoid Of doubt, With an assurity, That there is a world Beyond my limits, And beyond, Your words. Amazed, But I am afraid, Ready But I am not steady, Trying to balance And figure out, The rules and ways, To surf on Stormy days. What matters to me, Might not matter to you, What defines me Is the choices I make, What makes you unique, Is the decisions you take.

I wish Removing you from my heart Was as easy as it sounds, But it's like a rebound. If it was the mind, It could be distracted. If it was the touch, A newer could be found. Unfortunately, It's this depth, Inside a heart, Which,  Only gets deeper. Erasing of memories ? You mean Forget my parents, Forget my childhood home, Forget my first pet, Forget the smell of mom, Forget my first friends, Forget my first drawing, Forget my chaotic sibling fights ? Does any of this sound plausible ? If not, Then how do I erase you From my memories ? This side of heart, Which doesn't let anyone depart, Which clings to all it had, Even though there is so much left unsaid, Fills me with awe, And all I can do is withdraw.